the army

... NOVEMBER 1 2009 ...

that was the 1st time he went away, my brother that is ... see he's away at basic training in Georgia ... and i hate every bit of it ... dont get me wrong i am VERY proud of him for making this decision, and i support him 200% it just sucks that he's not as assessable as id like him to be ... no to mention he's not just 10 mins away when i need a hug .. i told myself the day he left i wasnt going to cry & i didnt (the waterworks came 2 days later) and i told myself that i was going to be okay while he was gone, and for the most part i am ... its just times like this when i feel alone or need someone to talk to and hes not around that makes me hate him being away ... i guess this is what people mean about things being bittersweet, i didnt understand before but i understand now ... and i guess for me i appreciate him for staying through it ... i mean can you blame me the only other person i was close to that was in the army didnt finish ... i think thats called "LACK OF COMMITMENT" but hey who am i to judge.??? *sigh