Short Days ... Cold Nights

Every time around this year i start to notice more and more how lonely i am... since i was born its always just my mother and i ... so wanting a big family may have something to do with why i love love soo much... but the holiday season is always so hard for me to get through its like from November to February im an emotional wreck ... im sure being single has something to do with it too .. i mean who REALLY wants to spend christmas lonely.?? and there's a difference between alone and lonely ... yes i am very much surrounded by people and family during the holidays but ive never really felt like i had someone to share it with .. it doesn't seem special ... im praying that it will change soon ... this christmas would be nice but if not i can wait til next year ...

Kissing You

im not exactly sure if people understand the power that a kiss can hold ... Of course i don't mean in a negative way.!! No not at all as kiss can make a good day bad and make hurt feelings ago away ... Can't seem to get your feelings out in words.? Try kissing someone im sure they'll understand ... Or if u have a girl like me who talks just a little too much at times (especially when she wants to express herself) just kiss me and ill shut up.!! Lol

The Truth

There ain't no substitute for the truth either it is or isnt, you see the truth it, needs no proof either it is or it isnt, Now you know the truth by the way it feels and if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly cause he is yes he is I wonder does he know.?

-India.Arie

i just wanna be loved...

im not sure if its the time or the place but whatever it is ive come to the point in my life where i want to just be loved and love in return ... thats it. nomore games nomore lies nomore waiting for him(whoever him is) to call me back, or come over nomore asking if i fit into his schedule ... i just want to be needed in someone elses life other than my own ... and it not go unseen or unappreciated ...

why does she stay.??

i never really understood why women stay in realtionships when they know they are loving the other person more than they are being loved ... but in return i never understood why men continued to entertain the idea of beingin a realtionship with someone they know they really dont want to be with... its like why keep them on the side when you could just move on.??? but i guess thats easy to do when she has decided to be helpless ... and has made it apparent that she cant move on and doesnt want to move on ... idk recently ive seen more and more girls get in realtionships that are good in the begining and take a turn somewhere near bad and have fallen off the cliff past worse and theyre continuing to HOLD ON to when they were driving down a street called nice ... knowing that they can no longer make a U-turn ... now i cant sit here and act like i dont understand because i was that girl once ... taking frequent strolls down memory lane and thinking about the way things USED TO be ... attempting to get him to be the person i fell in love with oh so long ago ... but people grow and change ... whether it be for the good or bad, the change and dont stay the same ... so to my ladies that have found themselves in this situation when is enough enough.?? when do you decide that you love yourself more.?? when are you going to stop holding on to the USED TO BE'S and allow yourself to move on and that person to do them ... even if its bad for them.??

Find Yourself Before You Lose Her

Men tend to bite of more than they are willing to chew or swallow ... These ridiculious standars have been placed on what they want their "wifey" to be like and what she has to look like and what (or who) can't be in her past ... What she has to be able to cook ... not realizing while placing all these wants out there they aren't offering anything to make us say "Yes i want to do all these things for you.!" ... All the while we know what your past entails ... Yet you don't see us not wanting to date you bcuz you can't cook or bcuz the reason you &. your ex broke up is bcuz you cheated ... And you MOST DEFINITELY don't see us counting you out bcuz you were a well know MAN WHORE in high school ... Its obvious that while guys want to have a "woman" in their life they have these young fantisies of what their woman is supposed to be like ... Disreguarding the fact that they are human just like us ladies and have made the same if not larger mistakes in their past &. counting us out of the race is only going to make things harder for you ... you can't expect to want her to be perfect if you're only gonna come half ass ... Bcuz we WILL take that into consideration and when the time is right acknowledge it, and start counting you out just as well ... So before you start making all these crazy demands make sure everything you're supposed to be as a man is taken care of ...