Short Days ... Cold Nights

Every time around this year i start to notice more and more how lonely i am... since i was born its always just my mother and i ... so wanting a big family may have something to do with why i love love soo much... but the holiday season is always so hard for me to get through its like from November to February im an emotional wreck ... im sure being single has something to do with it too .. i mean who REALLY wants to spend christmas lonely.?? and there's a difference between alone and lonely ... yes i am very much surrounded by people and family during the holidays but ive never really felt like i had someone to share it with .. it doesn't seem special ... im praying that it will change soon ... this christmas would be nice but if not i can wait til next year ...