& they say truth hurts...

i love you

all the if's in the world ...

If I were a month, I’d be October.

If I were a day of the week, I’d be Sunday.

If I were a time of day, I’d be midnight.

If I were a planet, I’d be Saturn.

If I were a animal, I’d be a chipmunk.

If I were a direction, I’d be north.

If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a chair.

If I were a liquid, I’d be Merlot.

If I were a gemstone, I’d be a diamond.

If I were a tree, I’d be a palm tree.

If I were a tool, I’d be a screwdriver.

If I were a flower, I’d be a sun flower.

If I were a kind of weather, I’d be a warm sunny day.

If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a violin.

If I were a color, I’d be magenta.

If I were an emotion, I’d be Love.

If I were a fruit, I’d be a pineapple.

If I were a sound, I’d be a giggle.

If I were an element, I’d be water.

If I were a car, I’d be a coupe.

If I were a food, I’d be good.

If I were a place, I’d be Vegas.

If I were a material, I’d be silk.

If I were a taste, I’d be sweet.

If I were a scent, I’d be amber.

If I were an object, I’d be a paper heart.

If I were a body part, I’d be an eye.

If I were a facial expression, I’d be a smile.

If I were a song, I’d be your favorite one.

If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be 4in high.

When God Speaks

okay so ive decided this is how this is gonna work: God is going to speak, & youre going to listen, then God is going to lead you to me, God will speak again, & i then will listen too, then im going to follow you, bcuz i know you're following God &. i don't question my faith ...

If I Had My Way

your who I desire

you light my fire

with every kiss

you take me higher

feeling like your loving

I just cannot resist

there's something that"s making me

hold on

there's no one i'd rather share my good lovin with

but I promised i'd wait till im ready for

this

one day we'll make love

passion unheard of

i'll be your woman

if I had my way

we will see heaven

loving together

we wont stop ever

if I had my way

I love your touch

it make me crumble?

how it loves so much

look what you've done

please don't whisper anything else in my ear

my body, my heart and my soul is high

let me find the strength to get on up outta here

cuz one day the way we feel

will be alright

one day will make love ( one day)

passion unheard of ( passion unheard of)

i'd be your woman (yea)

if I had my way

we will see heaven

loving together (lovin together)

we wont stop ever

if I had my way (waaayyyy)

I love you

no doubt about it

I wont change my mind

loves so true

if I had my way

I will make love to you

one day will make love

passion unheard of (passion unheard of)

i'd be your woman

if I had my way (if I had my way)

we will see heaven

loving together

we wont stop ever

if I had my way

-Chirsettte Michelle

i am

Wants & Needs

To the best of my understanding a man has this want to feel needed by their woman ... theres this desire to always feel like theyre around to fix something ... a requirement that they have to be needed in order to stay around ... personally i think this is a very valid purpose ... its just like the need a woman has to love and be loved ... but i guess my confusion better yet my displacement lies with the thought of "well what if i dont need to be fixed?" am i just supposed to be single forever.? or am i supposed to lower myself and break myself down, just so some man can "fix me".? im not exactly who the first one was but a dasmel in distress i am not and refuse to be ... Now don't get me wrong YES.! i am independent, but strip a man of his opportunity to be a man.? NO WAY.! im 150% pro men opening doors, picking up the check, and being the head of a household (or relationship) ... But i don't think its necessary for a man to come in a completly break me down in order for them to feel needed ... Isn't there some small satisifaction and security in knowing that if i get a flat tire and call you to tell you that its flat you know im okay because i can change it myself, or would you rather me call you in tears because i don't know what to do.? i don't know i personally feel like in ANY relationship both people should come whole and ready ... With no intentions or breaking the other down in a effort to feel needed. Trust me if the person didn't want you they wouldn't be there .....

'Nothing is for Nothing' -Jill Scott

Music's New 'Sextape'

Will Taylor (1/5 of the former Bad Boy group Day 26) has released a new mixtape ... or should i say "SEXTAPE" and my oh my did this sextape offer just that.!! Lots of songs that you would make your grandmother blush a deep shade of red ... im almost positive this isnt the last that we've heard of Mr. Taylor ...

if you haven't already added this 'SEXTAPE' to you music player

visit NOIVAKMUSIC.COM to download it now.!!

NEW LOOK.!!!

THERES NO POINT IN STATING THE OBVIOUS ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU CAN OBVIOUSLY SEE THE CHANGE ... =) BUT EITHER WAY ... I CHANGED THE COLORS ... SPRING IS KIND OF NEAR SO I DECIDED TO BRIGHTEN THINGS UP A LITTLE BIT ... WHAT DO YOU THINK.??

Invented Sex

I have a LARGE pleasure in watching this video ... not just because its Trey Songz but because the lead, and ONLY girl in this video is dark skin... no offense to my red-bones; one of my best friends is one ... but gets tiring looking at the television and not seeing any beautiful women that look like you ...

Monthly Mag : VIBE Feb 2010

This month Chris Brown is on the cover of VIBE magazine .. i was a little more shocked to see that VIBE decided to come back instead of seeing him on the cover ... inside the issue Chris Brown is quoted as saying

"It's never okay for a man to hit a woman but its [also] never okay for a woman to hit a man. I think domestic violence is just not men on women"

Now anyone that knows me personally and has talked to me regarding the situation with Chris Brown & Rihanna know where i stand on the situation and can see why this small quote stands out to me ... Either way weather you're Pro- Rihanna or Anti-Chris, you can't deny that the interview in this months VIBE is a clear sign that Chris isn't holding his tongue anymore

Monthly Mag : JET Feb. 15 2010

NEVER HAVE I EVER bought a JET magazine but while shopping for things for my trip i looked to my right and saw this cover and IMMEDIATELY had to not only pick it up but also buy it.!!

it was the weekly issue following Valentines day ... and what a happy late valentines day it was After reading the article about Mr. Neverson (thats his real last name .. not Songz in case you've been under a rock or something) ...

needless to say i've become more infatuated with not only his music but the parts of his personality i have been privileged to see ... its nice to see that this young man has managed to stay humble under the spot light ...

Underground Sound

ive always considered myself pretty open when it comes to trying new things; especially music (or food)... so when the mister told me that we were going to a concert last sunday i was down ... little did i know that i already knew of the person and had their music in my itunes ...

02.21.10 - Wiz Khalifa ...

PUSH PLAY.!!

PUSH PLAY.!!

PUSH PLAY.!!

Hey Lets Get Away

Someone once asked me, "where do you go for vacation, when you live in a vacation destination.?" Well the answer is simple:

TO SOMEPLACE DIFFERENT.!!

Which is how i ended up here for 5 days ... i can't exactly say where "here" was (unless you already know and if so keep your mouth shut) just know that while everyone else's 'pants were on the ground' there was snow on ours ...

i must admit for the most part i accomplished everything i intended to do; i didn't get my piercing as planned but hey.! Maybe next time. i also really enjoyed myself (aside from the rude phone call from my mother) everything was GREAT.!! Got to spend time with the mister ... Which is always the BESTEST ... & funny in some situations.

i ended my get away with a Wiz Khalifa concert

(see blog: Underground Sound) concert & fresh snow ... And to my surprise i knew who he was without knowing who he was ... i mean ive had his music in my itunes for some time now and didn't even know it...

Needless to say i had a REALLY fun time & needed to get away for a little while ... i can never sit still for too long though, so don't be surprised if you catch me jet setting some place new in just a few days (*hint hint*) ...

Youre the effin Best

...THURSDAY FEBRUARY 11 2010...

Drake was at HAZE night club in Aria Hotel ... and oh my is all i can say ... there were TOO MANY people there ... more than half of whom didnt get in .. luckily for me (and a few connects) i was privileged to be inside the club not outside with the flocks of people ... but being inside didnt really make a difference because like i said there were TOO MANY damn people.!!!

Drake did a really good performance .. i mean it was a full concert, and being that it was his first time in Vegas i can say that i was pleased ... and had a really good time ....

PUSH PLAY.!!!

Monthly Mag : GQ April 2009

okay so i may be a little late on this one but hey who cares.!!! hahaha im trying to figure out how you can order back issues of magazines ... i recently came across pictures of Kim Kardashian & Reggie Bush from the April 2009 issue of GQ magazine .. and all i can say is OHH EMM GEE.!! They are just the cutest couple ... Kim is a lucky girl just as Reggie is a lucky guy ...

Monthly Mag : ESSENCE Feb. 2010

so it was brought to my attention a few days ago that Mr. Reggie Bush is on the cover of Essence this month ... lol and THAT all i have to say about that ... oh yea & GO SAINTS.!!!

My Celebrity Lookalike is......

so i guess it was "doppelganger week" on Facebook. which of course had everyone talking about who they look like ... actually i think most of them were talking about who they WANT to look like not who they ACTUALLY look like but hey to each its own ... now ive personally NEVER ever thought that i looked like any celebrity, i just thought i looked like ME and that was good enough. but when i was a kid i had people tell me that i looked like Diana Ross ....

but i think that was just because of my eyes... then as time went on i started to hear from my brother "you know who you kinda look like.? ... Gabrielle Union.!"

HAHA now that was the best one ... i mean dont get me wrong shes BEAUTIFUL but i dont look like her ... (okay maybe a tiny bit in THAT picture lol) ... THEN HIGH SCHOOL CAME AND WENT AND DIDDY (P.Diddy, Puffy, Sead "diddy" Combs.. who can keep up these days.??) decided to "make a band" and Danity Kane came out & then i started to hear, "You know who you look like.? ... Dawn Richard.!"

now i'll admit for like 3.4 seconds i considered it .. then i came back to reality and said what i always say ... "shes a very pretty girl, i just dont look like her.!" ... and keep it pushin... it wasnt until i was reminded by my mother of a conversation that i had as a kid with Mr. Cosby ... and he asked if i had a ponytail like Rudy. (strange i know) he also asked if i was missing my two front teeth like Rudy too ..(dont ask..) now as a kid you believe that their t.v. names are their REAL names, so as a kid everyone always said i looked like little Rudy, well LITTLE Rudy grew up & so did i .. and it wasnt until i came across this picture of her did i FINALLY say okay maybe you guys are right ... and i cant argue no matter how hard i try ...

Keshia Knight Pulliam

yea and the bangs dont help either I KNOW.!! i really tried to go without having a celebrity lookalike but i was proven wrong .. its okay because i really like Keshia Knight Pulliam ... so a week later and i found who i look like ... i wonder if its too late to change my icon.?? hahaha

act like a lady, think like a man ....

... for the next few weeks i will be reading Steve Harvey's 'Act Like A Lady; Think Like A Man ... i read it when it first came out and it really opened my eyes to some of the foolish things us as women do ... so this time(after being single for a year) im going to read it again & make sure that its not me its them .... lol.!!

single

As i sit here a listen to Hey You by Floetry i can't help but to smile ... Valentines day is a little more than a week away and as nice as it would be to have a valentine im happy that for another year in a row i don't have to participate in the "holiday" or lack of ... Usually the thought of being single saddens me but not this time around. im glad that i can listen to love songs or songs of missing someone and not break down into tears ... im glad that i have no one to miss, just the thought of what could have been with someone that i haven't even met, and its satisfying knowing that....

gone

ive never really understood why they say you dont miss a good thing til its gone.

its like you didnt realize what you had when you had it.?

you couldn't see what was right there in front of you.?

idk i think im feeling this way because i just listened to omarions song speeding...

i mean dont get me wrong its a very good song, i like it alot...

i just dont understand the point in putting yourself through all of that

just to realize what you had all along...

and in his case (well in the video) he didnt even get her back.!

so he went through all of that for nothing, when he could've just stayed & had it all along.

BANGS.!!!!

the army

... NOVEMBER 1 2009 ...

that was the 1st time he went away, my brother that is ... see he's away at basic training in Georgia ... and i hate every bit of it ... dont get me wrong i am VERY proud of him for making this decision, and i support him 200% it just sucks that he's not as assessable as id like him to be ... no to mention he's not just 10 mins away when i need a hug .. i told myself the day he left i wasnt going to cry & i didnt (the waterworks came 2 days later) and i told myself that i was going to be okay while he was gone, and for the most part i am ... its just times like this when i feel alone or need someone to talk to and hes not around that makes me hate him being away ... i guess this is what people mean about things being bittersweet, i didnt understand before but i understand now ... and i guess for me i appreciate him for staying through it ... i mean can you blame me the only other person i was close to that was in the army didnt finish ... i think thats called "LACK OF COMMITMENT" but hey who am i to judge.??? *sigh