The Color is Grey

So i looked in the mirror today and almost cried. i really think ive grown to dislike the way i look, and its based on what every other guy thinks ... Its like i have a complex or something. i know that's a hard thing to believe but its true ... & its become hard to function. im sure someone reading this already knows what im talking about but for the ones that don't im referring to the whole "DARK SKIN GIRLS AREN'T PRETTY" ... Even just thinking about it kinda makes me want to cry ... ive been trying to figure out when skin color defined beauty.? And who's the person that came up with this stupid unfair shallow vapid rule.? im aware that i shouldn't care about what other people think, but that's sorta difficult if when dating you're CONSTANTLY thinking "i wonder if he's really attracted to me or if she settling because he never expected to met a pretty dark skin girl.?" ... *sigh and the sad part is this shallow light vs. dark has caused such an animosity between women, and men have yet nor cared enough all they know is they want "long hair thick red bone" ...